never the MIND

I guess we have to be thankful. There are worse things to fret about.
Less worthy things to lose sleep on/tears on for the matter.
And maybe nothing will ever come close -
matters of the heart.



I have a friend who is a lot like me.
And often, we count on one another for support.
Cos we knows the other will understand.
Quite naively, we seek encourage/comfort/convince each other.
To move on/ That its not worth it/ That ITS OKAY
But as always
like a cycle
We stay where we are at.
Cos we let our emotions rule
& we lost again.
Sometimes I wonder if the reason behind why we do what we did is the same.

The Test

I am an effort kind of girl.
A sucker for well put together words.
And have a bundle of excuses always ready.
But
Surely I could do this.

I can't seem to upload pictures in blogspot. And its like that for the different computer i tried. :(


Somewhere along the way I - changed. And because I feel less 'attractive' even to myself, I want to run the other way. And if possible not a loop back like the many times I tried. And fail terribly in my furtile lame attempts. I forgot since when I look into the mirror and like what i see before me. Its not the appearance only. If only it was so brutally simple. I think I forgot a number of stuffs... and not surprisedly I can't remember half of them what they are. But trust me, I think I make a better person a few years back.

When someone asked what I am good at during one of our random conversation:
"I am good at... waiting & being quiet..." was my first reply.
And I think its just my another way of saying
" wasting my youth and swallowing the questions in my head ..."
Well that would be more apt to describe how it was then anyway.