reality bites

I thought I knew what I wanted. And the feeling of being in control was so good that I forgotten what I really want and how much I really want them. I went for two interviews, one for a future broker and another oil broker. Both interview went really well and I totally nailed them! BUT i won't be accepting either afterall. For futures, its was just not what I had in mind and more importantly I wasn't wanting it as much. The oil was what left me confused.



I really wanted the job so much at the very instant I stepped out of Raffles Place Mrt, so much so I was willing to work for free first when I know that they needed to fill the positions asap. Since sometime back, I have set earning lots of money as the main objective of my career. The luxury goods. My own apartment. Holidays at exotic locations. Everything money can buy, I want to get it on my own.



Materialistic definitely. But I am determined to not be ordinary anymore. I want to make my mark in my career and to get a job I have passion in so that I will be able to excel if not, at least to be able to perform to the best of my ability. I just feel that being the 99% of the others is just not good enough anymore. So I did not consider sending in to marketing or to the service hotel and hospitality industries at all.

HOWEVER, a lot of factors are stoppping me. One not convenient to share it here. The job need me to be a social butterfly and I don't know if I can be that party animal that is required of me. The job requires late nights, socializing, entertaining and as much as I still feel its quite glamourous I am not sure the sacrificies will be worth it. And if I will even be able to put myself out there like meat in the market.