戀愛時，殘忍,應不應該?

戀愛的時候，殘忍是不應該的，

尤其是在別人絕望的愛你，而你絕望的不愛別人時。



可是啊 ...........



戀愛的時候，殘忍是應該的，

尤其是在別人絕望的愛你，而你絕望的不愛別人時。

-蔡康永

reality bites

I thought I knew what I wanted. And the feeling of being in control was so good that I forgotten what I really want and how much I really want them. I went for two interviews, one for a future broker and another oil broker. Both interview went really well and I totally nailed them! BUT i won't be accepting either afterall. For futures, its was just not what I had in mind and more importantly I wasn't wanting it as much. The oil was what left me confused.



I really wanted the job so much at the very instant I stepped out of Raffles Place Mrt, so much so I was willing to work for free first when I know that they needed to fill the positions asap. Since sometime back, I have set earning lots of money as the main objective of my career. The luxury goods. My own apartment. Holidays at exotic locations. Everything money can buy, I want to get it on my own.



Materialistic definitely. But I am determined to not be ordinary anymore. I want to make my mark in my career and to get a job I have passion in so that I will be able to excel if not, at least to be able to perform to the best of my ability. I just feel that being the 99% of the others is just not good enough anymore. So I did not consider sending in to marketing or to the service hotel and hospitality industries at all.

HOWEVER, a lot of factors are stoppping me. One not convenient to share it here. The job need me to be a social butterfly and I don't know if I can be that party animal that is required of me. The job requires late nights, socializing, entertaining and as much as I still feel its quite glamourous I am not sure the sacrificies will be worth it. And if I will even be able to put myself out there like meat in the market.

How does it feel to be on the top of the world?

I am having cold feets... About if i can actually clear all those modules i am taking. Its scary if the unexpected throw all your plans out of the window just like that. And what about the first interview and my first job, will it be how i have imagine it to be or i be just be another 999 peps.

High expectation means more disappointment, i should learn not to have much of them. If any.

Icing on the cake

Biasesness. Preference. Choice. Regret. Time. Forgiveness. Unconditional. Exception. Love. Insecurities. Deserving. Confidence. Uncertainty. Boys. Impulses. Characters. Differences. Family.

The i wonder entry

soooo nicelyy they slow dance into my life again and again.

Watched Street Kings today & loved it! I hate it when I watch a good enjoyable movie and then read bad reviews about it when i go google-ing. Hee. But nevermind the reviews, its a really good i think. =)

The Bucket List

Was flipping a magazine when I chanced upon this! They did featured a few vocations spots that are really different and beautiful but this really got my attention!

Its a real dream holiday and surprisely its not RIDICULOUSLY expensive like $1000 per night... Here's 9 Beaches at Bermuda. Where you stay in cabana and has glass panels at the bottom where you can see schools of fishes swimming..

I wanna go there someday entry

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Yen probably gonna kill me for this. She said she will rather have a luxurious interior hotel and face buildings and walls than a view like the above. So I went on to google the most luxurious hotel and found this!!! Its the presidential suite the best of the best literally but.....

Burj Al Arab

BUT she gonna love me because of this. I found this other hotel that has both the the view and comfort. There's really only one word to describe it. WOW! And i had promised to bring her there the next time...

The London NYC

Pop Art

I don't know he was refering to me or the picture.

haha I will like to think i am art! Hee

Tug of War. Loser no matter which side won

I am not seeing ZJ anymore.
Not ready to share anything to anyone.
So don't ask the "why" "how comes". Please.

I wish things did not have to turn out this way but its just foolish of me.
I wish that I can remember the awfuls and not what i want to remember.

Receive this email from someone at my fyp lab. And realize the note with no addressee is for me. Its funny cos his initial note has no name to whom its address, weird cos he is a PHD student at lab where we never talked before and sweet and all but ...



I still live in hope.