a shot

I am affected by him not trying harder to make it happen.
Even after I took the first step.
No, its not about matters of the heart.
But it makes me rethink and i hate it.

Then I spoke to kaetf,
I laugh a little.
china air.
hee

Then when mwd msn me
I think maybe.
But i feel shitty still.
And I could feel myself distancing
and I hate that I cant speak my mind now.
Cos I think its silly I put so much into nothing.

I mean its not like....
whatever.