Wednesday, November 28

The cup is half full

As we do our daily routines and try to live our life, we come across questions that makes our world seem so much narrower and harder to live through and which has answers that elude the whole meaning behind everything or anything. Maybe they are not so much of questions, but observations about things around us that is happening that doesn't make sense now. The stress that are put into doing well for exams which manifest into a disease 'society' where other developments for the child seem to be neglected. And then the whole idea of stepping into the work race which make us robots and machines really. The post-work routinal life is even harder to stomach, and its scares the hell out of me.

And if the process of life is not about questions, it is ought to be about the people. Those that left memories and those which left cuts and well, a empty hole in the heart. People hurt one another unknowingly which could result from a misunderstanding or a miscommunications or when you are just feeling not too good. But at the other end, there are those which knows you so well they hurt you with what they know about you. And seriously i think the latter people are more dangerous because they meant it. The people we met and how we perceive them are really like a photo. They seem to be something that reflect either a transition of our life, or the state of mind we have when we meet them. Like when you are a student, you probably be meeting friends whom are looking at company and fun. Or at the hectic and cut throat work place, where you are stress and cornered, most probably the perception of the people you met will be less flavourable considering the circumstance. ..

a quote
"Any schoolboy can do experiements in the physics laboratory to test various scientific hypotheses. But man, because he has only one life to live, cannot conduct experiments to test whether to follow his passion or not."

Thursday, November 22

Happy 80th Birthday






As i kapoh on friendster today, I realised On-Off status doesn't happen only in semiconductor optoelectronics. And I feel hearten that the best times are still with my loved ones, and with them ... it can only be on. Yesterday family bonding time was so good, I cant wait for the mass flight to China coming CNY when it will be many days of family bonding.. Yipppppeeeeeeee
Mood: Totally no mood to study for exam. Whatttt exammm??



Sunday, November 18

Rar-Rah !!!

I feel max out. Like nothing can go into the head now, so I stopped studying for tomorrow papers. Complacency is sure gonna haunt me at the exam's hall... Can't wait for wed to come, cos by then all my "harder" papers will be completed by then AND it will be my ah ma bdae celeb. Can't wait. They are gonna have catering at 10am , 1pm and then dinner at a restaurant. Wohooooo, too bad i got to miss the morning one cos i got a paper. YummmmmmmYY

Oh went with yu to city plaza and got 3 shoes for $30!!! And its super nice type which prob will cost so much more at far east! Mine is a black tuxedo like wedge-heel. While i choose for yen this dusty gray flats with coloured stones on it. Yu got a white pointed flats with cute buttons on it.Its really a cheap shoes heavens!!!! =)

Friday, November 16

A400


with adeline


with destiny



with dione




Did an event and we had to dress as SQ girls. It was a break from study with ok pay. =-) And looking at the pictures, I think my posture is real bad. Hee, and my head look super big cos i do the "tortoise-head" action when I take picture! Haha. =-) Really enjoyed myself last nite at the event, the girls was all fun loving and the MC was hilarious and make me laugh till my stomach archs. At one point, I really thought I could feel abs forming with the constant and continous laughing. And the best thing, I saw XJ there too!!! We made each other night, cos it is always great to see someone close and familiar so unexpectedly.. =* And somehow its heartening to know there are people who knows you well, and thankfully they are there for you ...

+ I figure at how to do the bun!!! the one who tied her first neat bun the day before, could actually help the rest do theirs the next day.. I even tried googling and lost lots of hair while trial and erroring. =-) I went fully prepared, red nails, hair sprays and pins.. I was real serious about it. Hee. cos I was hoping my positive attitude will get me more of such jobs .... Got Mo-Di de lar.. *)

I cant wait for exams to be over, and as I finished them one by one - there is the IT show to look forward to. Yen. Laopo. Rongz. $$ching-chang!

Saturday, November 10

the perfect gentleman

I have been thinking, is it so easy to take something for granted or was the reason simply 温馨的请客吃饭 ...



there's is always half truth in teasing or things said in jest, thats what i always believe. Its like subconsciously you have played with the thoughts before or bottled up in you... So its affect me. Was it so much so on thats what thought of me by the person , or is it just me being me - always wanting to be like...

I know I can make up for the hindsight, in taking the treats for granted and expecting it. ( and its worse when the gift came in the form of vouchers) I want to make it up but I am also realllyy afraid I can't measure up or keep up with all of these...




The thing is I am not like that with others previously, and maybe because of the difference in age and earning income and all, I took everything else for granted. The thing is I don't usually go out with guys, and if somebody pays for everything doesn't mean I will go out with him... but he doesn't knows that. And I think its horrible that he pays for like 99% of everything, and I just accept it that way... *screams* And it scares the hell of me, that i got use to this kind of going out... i know i can't allow myself to, because in the end dependancy is the sure way road to self-destruction

And seriously, I still can't apprehend what he wants. Or what I want...

Man, its feels good to rant!

Sunday, November 4

Halloween Cuties


HalloweeN


Treats Or Trick


Gorgerous Black Angel


The Killer boys (Ze)


Handsome Astro

Japanese Happy Witch


Singapore Girl


Peak A Boo Pink


Preety Boy


3 Musketeers =P


Darling Cutie


My favourite Handsome!


Pumpkin Orange


Vampire Red


smiley pirate


Pretty Red Devil


* Eye Candy Feast *



























Friday, November 2

self destruction

You know you are aheaded to self destruction when you decide to go ahead and said yes to meet. And the thing is that I don't want to. But I am so affected by the other realisation, that its not like what I think. We are indeed from different worlds and aren't looking for the same things. And its sad even thinking about it. So when I got his sms, I thought why not. And I think I am self destructing slowly. And I have reasons to..

For now there isn't much to say really. Cos like I said, I don't even know what to think already. But to GG, nothing has change about my status lars. And we are still like before.

Anyway, its time to be best buddy with my notes and tutorials to take care of the examinations. =-) Thanks Pam for the sms.. ;)