Little Miss Sunshine

Work was suffocating somehow today. I was with the same right company. We even have meetings which i adore cos i get to see every one and its just talking. I love being away at my desk. We even confirmed the plans to go back NTU & NUS to give out flyers from this fri to next thurs. IT Is A Big Thing!! I was looking all forward to leave the company with all the IA students. But somehow today was percuilar. ..

I finally have more work today. But somehow i think i am trapped within... I feel there is so much stuffs to take care of and YES, i am freaked out abt failing my Basic Theory Test. =( I find updating the contact list tedious. And as i looked at the big shots name cards, i feel i need more. I want to do so much more about my future. And in actual fact, what i have to get done is peanuts compared to the rest of the IA students. I feel that somehow they learnt more about how the company operates and the products itself... yah, we are in different departments and we are doing what we are supposed to do. But i feel unsatisfied. No job satisfaction you can say... ...


I realised that a lot of things i thought i knew i wanted, are all a fog.. I am total clueless about them. Cos with each question about if i really..., I am always stumped. And with each question, i doubt it more...


I watched a show.. He said its not important if that person still like somebody or if he really did like somebody before. Cos its impossible to put all those feelings and emotions in one sentence, and often love is relative. ... .. =-)

To like anything for me is just a simple definition, if it lets me pause a moment and want to think about it.. hees, thats explains my endless likes of shoes , bags & quotes.. =-P

Sometimes i wish i can spinkle magic dust over those young girls, and erase all their hurts and humilation.. Then they will not feel that being light mean fitting in with their tactless friends. And being beautiful doesn't mean no food & only excerise till you left with bones and sticks , & leaving your love ones dry and cold in the outside... When i saw the dove campaign, i din not give the 1 in 15 teenager girls has eating disorder much thoughts.. I love the ad, but it was just statistic then. .. Not now though. Anyway, i wish confidence can be found in-built within every child and then they will be equip with a rather important survival tool. I wish that she will love herself more. I wish SHe will break out of the shell & not have anything lesser than the very best happen to her...
Watch this Dove video, its diff from the SIN version .. But i like it too.
http://www.campaignforrealbeauty.com/commercial.asp?src=InsideCampaign_commercial

They said that to forget somebody you need 3 times the period you get to know him/her... Hahaa i think its as low-mantic as its sad..

I love happy ending..

L for lethagic

Getting use to something is a dangerous thing. . . And routines makes me comfortable. Soup for dinner. The phone at the left side of the bed. The easy breeze through life. The little excitement expected at a certain day or time. So when i get 2 Fails for my e-trial Test for driving , it makes my bluely moods even bluer.. It like getting the two orange M&Ms in a row, so 'suai'..(Unlucky)!!


And as i look through the Pictures Folder, I am *shocked* to find that i look the same still. Arghh, there's no major change in hairstyle, and i still have the shoulder length and short fringe sweep to the side look. And it did not help that i found 5 black tops that look abit too similar. *pulls hair... Talking about variety. I dun have!! =S


My lit neighbours called yen, money. Cos they are japanese.. =-) She loved the nickname by them. Me? I am still the same. Ning.

Dreamgals with Yen

Work today was different.. Tag along with my sup & senior to Raffles Place coffee joint to meet up with Digital Life reporter L.G. We end up outside for a whole 3 hours. 3 hours of sipping coffee , checking out tech magazines in MPH and name tag making at Golden Mile ... =-) It was nice to be away from the office and the computer once in awhile.. I din dared to speak up at all during the chit chat session. I was just being me. At one part, I think i laugh/giggle alittle too school girl-ish. hee It was an eye opener no less. To be able to meet real people we have a hand in making your product work or break & whom teach you alittle in their own way... This meeting was cute in a way.. I realise this reporter mirrored my senior action at a certain point. She was nervous then , maybe even awkward. Thats what i know after checking with her.. And i am guessing their emotions then also mirrored one another in a way.

Oh i wished i had a mentoes with me today. Cos then i will solved my broken heel drama with a pop of those cool mints. It was raining & i ran to the car. I even thought there is dent on my sup's car until i check for dents ... Ta-Ten. I saw my 'flat'. Only one of the heel came off, so i had to tip toe on one leg constantly. Its oh my tian ah!!

I do irrational things with a reason. Yen thinks i do irrational things. Like switching off my handphone cos i am 'scared' of this person. I am not scared of him. Just the whole idea is frightening silly to me. I rather wait you know.

Hey not putting up tag board in here. So just leave a comment or can tag at my old blog. I still visit it cos of the links there... =-)

Keeping me sane

Win-ning

This blog must not be linked or spread around.. Thats all i ask for letting YOU to enter my world of impossibles, random , laugh-able, naive & silly thoughts. Thank you, friends...=-)


Sometime when you think you are the only one been hurt before & lead to believe a mistake, you also realise you are not alone in meeting jerks. This doesn't make me feel better, but at least its make me laugh... How guys can say the same rubbish and recycle them like waste at girls... I admit the guys in my life aren't all badz, but its harder to be recklessly brave now. Cos we all like to wait & see or play games meant for the players. You get pull into this game where you are not capable of winning, and can only wish you will be let down lightly.


I can't deny the fact that shy guys are mysterious. But saying lets have dinner when you are free , followed by a blushing emoticon is cute as well... Initiative. Had a mini and favourite kpoh msn session always with Jan , we like to complain and indulge in xin shuan emo talks about passive guys. How we cannot stand thems.. Hiak.


And as much as i heart my last blog, i have to abandon it. And with it, i abandon a friendship too. I guess not many of you will know , what else i am throwing out ... I always 'ren' not to do that post, and many other previous telling posts, cos then i wont be able to pretend anymore.


I realise i can't put up a "I DON'T CARE" front anymore, hence i had to speak. And the irony , i am begining to doubt if its just me thinking too much.. But like always, there is no turning back for me already.